straight from the heart

Miss u papa.. too much.  Very much.. mere baccho ko aapko nanu bolna tha.. 😢 At every special moment in my life.. I miss u so much..  it is going to be 5 years...  Hope we will be connected in our next lives too.. :-( Aisi bidaai ho to .. lambi judai ho to to.. dehleez dard ki bhi paar kara de.. mud ke na dekho dilbaro... Baba mei teri malika.. tukda hun tere dil ka.. Evertime I listen this song and I miss u..

And it all happened with two pink lines. I felt complete. What more could I ask for . Hearing mumma from one more mouth .  I am so happy, exhilarated... One day it will take to absorb the feeling .. obviously.. many feelings.. going through pregnancy... maternity leave... Forgoing customs... Living in this very office for next years ... Once again weight gain and control in years to come..  the cycle of four years atleast.. but then what I will gain is a friend, sibling, companion for Vaanya, for the whole of her life.. and another one to think of constantly.. for the rest of our lives... OMG.. I think I won't stop writing... Such an overwhelming emotion.  God be with me for the phase of my life and help us find happiness... Can't believe I am pregnant. I wont be alone till some time..I

So when I was going through a two week wait.. I try googling for n no of reasons.  Then I went through the page that asked me to write about your ordeal.. It really is an ordeal.. or a trailer to an ordeal... Where you don't mind growing from over weight to obese. Where u are so obsessed about the lo that you forget you will curse the decision n no. Of times in coming years. That you are once again going to forget yourself and make them above ur needs.. But who likes a simple plain life.. challenges are what that keep us growing forever. We want to be blessed again.. for n no of reasons.. I am waiting for u moon... Come soon.....