Family completed !! - 29.7.2018

And it all happened with two pink lines. I felt complete. What more could I ask for . Hearing mumma from one more mouth .  I am so happy, exhilarated... One day it will take to absorb the feeling ..

obviously.. many feelings.. going through pregnancy... maternity leave... Forgoing customs... Living in this very office for next years ... Once again weight gain and control in years to come..  the cycle of four years atleast.. but then what I will gain is a friend, sibling, companion for Vaanya, for the whole of her life.. and another one to think of constantly.. for the rest of our lives...

OMG.. I think I won't stop writing... Such an overwhelming emotion.  God be with me for the phase of my life and help us find happiness...

Can't believe I am pregnant. I wont be alone till some time..I

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