straight from the heart

"Sometimes you just have to be done, not mad, not upset... Just done." Read this somewhere, found it so appropriate. When you find no fault of yours in the worsened situation. When you find people have grown bigger than their stature. They may be going through bad phase but you are no reason for it and you don't need to suffer due to this. When two sided relationships become one sided. When you just want peace. You know there is no reason to put your time and energy towards blackhole. Where nothing returns. When every word of you is being judged and scrutinised. When people don't want to talk to you. So let them be. Let them heal. They are going through crises. Let them sail through it. Let them find their light. And know your worth eventually. Let them find peace.   And what is yours will return. What is always meant to be will always be. Truth will prevail. Time heals everything. Amen.

Counting days... Vomits and nausea.. counting weeks.... Back pains... Tiredness.. again counting days... Counting movements... Waiting for days... A little munchkin be in your arms and in your hearts forever.... Counting hiccups.. monitoring burps..  feed counter and manager... numerous Pees and poos... for many months... Vaccinations and their side effects... First smile.. first hook-up glance..  First summer.. first tooth.. first step... first walk.. first word.. cherishing every first milestone... Watching your heart roaming around in the house.  Missing your kids while on office.. missing your work while at home.. tracking the source of sickness .. punishment and reward schedules.. tracking what kind of punishment will mould your behaviour in the right way.. tracking what kind of studies to be given.. but the greatest teacher is parents themselves and their actions, children learn by watching them silently. Motherhood is being strict sometimes while your heart wants ...

You have completed one year outside my womb and I dint get time to write any blog.. And one year went like a snap.. Phew !!! This post is not to celebrate your one year but to emphasise that I was so busy that I cudn't write a blog.. Lol.. I wrote some diaries though, for you to read later.. You are amazing, super energetic, dimpled, fair, chubby (wen born), super cute, black nice haired, charmer, eye candy to ppl, and wat not.. Enuf of ur appearance.. Most of all you are Mumma's Girl... My Fan, you love me the most and I love this fact the most.. Wen I joined office, first day, wen I came back after just two hours, you cried so hard so hard, that we cried too.. I love u too my babes.. U may start walking anytime.. We are raising u to be more flexible than Vaanya, we are trying not to repeat our shortcomings.. U are in family food, u are more independent or may be its your nature and not us.. But most of all, I thing its all pre written... God, I feel I am writing rubbish ...