straight from the heart

Fir haath mei sharaab hai... sach bolta hun main... As alcohol is for alcoholic..  Same way pen is for a writer...(though technology has brought us close to blogger).. It sets your imagination free... And takes you to its own world..free of social bondages... free of mental agonies... free of physical pains.. You can let your thoughts flow freely and express what you cannot otherwise. When you write you unwind the blockages and free the energy thus. Same way painter not only paints... he expresses through colors and textures and drawings... A person who reads or watches a painting tries to decode the scene created by the artist... So I decided to start writing again as it emancipates me (and the person who listen to me uninterestingly). Was confused about where to write.. Paper or blogger... Whatever comes handy but preferably blogger bcz I want to read it again after years.. And also I can keep the privacy according to the content. Taking a step towards myself.

When I leave you in a day-care and you cry for me..my heart pounds... When you came back to home and look for me in my room... my heart skips a beat... When I am lost in the office.. probably . You are also thinking about me... Though I want to take a holiday and be with you. I want to be there in your nascent stage... but then I think ... I have to make you independent.. physically, mentally, spiritually... I want to be your strength and not your weakness... I want to be your inspiration and not your excuse...these are small things but have a big impact... You need to learn to find love.. adjust with those who love you, like your mother... and my love is always there for you... you need great exposure in life.. and you deserve great love too.. you want to be pampered and nurtured and I promise all your needs will be well addressed by me always... Your mom is there... you are always there in my thoughts... Ps: I  also need time for myself... lol... Ps: you dance, laugh, smil...

We can never explain the relationship between a child and his mother... it grows with time or develops.... As child becomes more independent and separates physically from her mother...the bonding deepens ... Child knows the touch of his mother.. judges her emotions... starts internalizing them... As he starts to face the society.. mother can think she is taking a back seat.. but she is needed always... just for the selfless love....that she always has for the child....