My heart will go on...

When I leave you in a day-care and you cry for me..my heart pounds...
When you came back to home and look for me in my room... my heart skips a beat...
When I am lost in the office.. probably . You are also thinking about me...

Though I want to take a holiday and be with you. I want to be there in your nascent stage... but then I think ... I have to make you independent.. physically, mentally, spiritually... I want to be your strength and not your weakness... I want to be your inspiration and not your excuse...these are small things but have a big impact...
You need to learn to find love.. adjust with those who love you, like your mother... and my love is always there for you... you need great exposure in life.. and you deserve great love too.. you want to be pampered and nurtured and I promise all your needs will be well addressed by me always... Your mom is there... you are always there in my thoughts...

Ps: I  also need time for myself... lol...
Ps: you dance, laugh, smile and innovate very generously like me... your eating habits are like your dad...
Love you Vaanya.

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