straight from the heart

This post is for all the trophies, certificates, awards and rewards being given to me till date... I have one song for them in my mind:- "Jahan main jaati hun wahin chale aate ho, chori chori mere dil mei samate ho,  ye to bataoo ki tumm mere kaun ho" The open shelves in my house long for them.. i just fall for them whenever I see the opportunity.. they are never enough.. I always feel that this department has not churned my talents well ... Or i am an over achiever.. i just always want to achieve and challenge myself... And be happy... Do aur certificates.. aajao aa jao.... Mere pass aa jao...💕💕 I have shifted to new home. Some of them are still there.. i just miss them... Jaldi hi unhe le aaungi yahan....ghar Khali sa lag raha hai... Meri betiyo ki umar aa gayi awards and rewards kiii lekin unki maa ka moh nahi chuut raha 😜😜   I can be a content-writer too.. or I can be a teacher. Or a investigator.. or a manager... I can be anything u know... I am just so so so happy ....

It takes a great deal to be strong. It is a long drawn process.. when you just want to break down and you still show up.. u get up.. and face the world. Face the challenges that life throws upon you.  Hold the things that tend to fall apart. Hold other when they are falling apart while keeping your sanity intact is probably one of the toughest things to do.It is never the easier path to take.  It is very easy to lay down and count your sorrows and get depressed and fall down. Robert Frost said... The woods were lovely dark and deep, but I had promises to keep. And miles to go before I sleep and miles to go before I sleep.  And my fav mother Teresa said... People are often unreasonable and self centred  Forgive them anyway... If you are kind, people will accuse you of selfish motives..  Be kind anyways.. The good you do today may be forgotten tomorrow Do good anyways Give the world the best you have and it may never be enough Give your best anyways For you see, i...

Kaun si pyaari hai kaun si nyaari hai... Dono hi pyaari hain, dono hi nyaari hain... 1 din to kuch bhi nahi hai, poori zindagi agar in dono ka kamra sajane mei lag jaye to kamm hai... Kuch badal jaata hai zindagi mei maa banne ke baad.. priorities, emapathy, warmth, sensitivity, sab kuch change ho jaata hai . Alag se emotions aa jate hain... Tehraav sa aa jaata hai zindagi mei.. jaise zindagi mil jaati ho.. insaan wahin ruk jaata hai.. wahin ghar.. wahin duniya.. wahin unka khana, unke kapde, unki education, unki life, unke sapne.. sab change. .. We must appreciate what we get.. life gives u everything, kabhi kuch kabhi kuch.. itna saara pyàar..sab kuch ek saath nahi.. kabhi kuch kabhi kuch . .. kabhi waqt, kabhi pyaar, kabhi ambitions, kabhi unko poore karne ka mauka, kabhi smiles, kabhi cries..  Jab jo nahi hota wohi yaad aane lag jaata hai.. papa nahi hain to papa ki yaad aati hai.. roz aati hai.. how we used to talk.. we used to walk.. night walks, mujhe gaadi sikhana, mere sch...

Meaning strong.. she is just so strong headed. Jo soch liya wahi karna hai.. kitna bhi samjha lo. She is a spoiled brat in my life. You simply cannot win over her... Adira:- mumma meri dress change kar do.  Mom:- kya hua Aadu:- geeli ho gayi Mom:- Kya gir gaya? Aadu:- Aansu..  Because she was crying for something since long. Now u cannot decide whether to give in to her demands, whether to try to make her understand( make her cry more), whether to laugh and whether to cry.  She is impossible. This very nature of her is just opposite of Vaanya, jitni jaldi woh samajhti hai .. utna hi Aadu nahi samajhti hai. Same home, same set of parents, same upbringing.. but starkly opposite behaviour.  This is just one of the feathers in her cap. Others being asocial, not being happy while going to school, no interest in curriculum, no interest in fruits, only junk she likes., Being choosy about clothes she have to wear, not potty trained blah  blah blah blah... All these in m...

Right from lingerie to the lehenga, slippers to comb, rings to bangles, washroom to home .. parents and family everything is new for a bride .. Just like a bride, a new house is ornamented.. from the foundation till roof, facade til back, every inch is decorated and prepared .. for new residents in its heart... A slight touch of particular-ness if given to the piece of land. And it becomes.. an abode.. a dream, a luxury, necessity.. an indispensable part of our lives.. like a newly wed.. it becomes a dream come true..  Adding spirit to the materialistic things.. roti kapda aur makan.. God has given so much to feel thankful for. I just hope.. bhagwan ji yun hi aabad rakhein.

We never tested for covid, yet we know we are covid positive. We are a family of 9(one is expecting) so exactly 10. My brother in law had fever and after 4 days of various tests, high  grade fever, headaches. He was tested for Covid and it came out positive. Meanwhile other members of the family started showing symptoms of aches and fevers.. out of 10, 5 were positive. And left we were four. We were advised not to go for test as we also started developing symptoms. The youngest one is being in most vulnerable stage and hope he/she is most protected and comes out to be in best of health and happiness.  Covid is a overly dramatised virus, it stays in body for so long. It creates havoc. Immunity becomes hyperactive. Aches , head, body and back, torture us. 1 week is hell-ish. Fever , though it is mild, and lasts for a day or so, seems like eternity. And the spread. My God, what spread, spreads like wildfire. In 2 days it affected 9 of us. One after other. I hope only we are affec...

While I am writing this, my Vaanya is putting henna on my hands.. as tommorow is grah pravesh of our new home.   Today she has won 1st prize in medal making competition. And participated in rakhi competition as well . Her teacher said in the recent PTM that we are proud and blessed parents. Aise kids har parents aur teachers ke dream kids hote hain. Her words welled up our eyes... Really we are so proud and lucky to have her. She is our God's Gift. She is punctual, hardworking. She is going to turn 8 on 19th and she is so mature than her age.  She is so sensible.  7th August 2022.. the day went like a snap .. phew... It all started with rain at 6am. Then jegar at 8:30. Havan over at 10:30.. pakore ... Everybody.. they came . Blessed us... Liked our new home . . 

People may remember this day for independence of Pakistan and various other reasons.. For me this day is etched in my memory lanes for shifting of homes...   14th August 2015:- I shifted from Coimbatore to Faridabad, 2065 sector 8.. for forever.. taking just one step in the process ..   giving CCL till October and with my ICT Application forwarded from Coimbatore to Coimbatore Zone.  And hope of it being forwarded from zone to CCA and then to Delhi CCA and then ICT being happening in Delhi and me being transferred to Delhi Zone.  And all of the above happened.. and within the timeframe hoped by me..(fastest ICT Ever) miraculously.. By God's grace.. everything fell in place.. All the pieces joined together.. I am thankful to God for everything ... Giving me all that I have.. fulfilling all my dreams...and much more.   And this day today.. 13th August 2022.. 7 years later.. We are again ready to shift.. to our new abode.. 379.. Our new home... Again with...

I hate you 2021. Please go now.  Sitting in the prayer meet of Anubhavji's mom and crying. 2021, you gave me more reasons to cry than to smile. You took away rahul bhaiya, tauji, komal's dad and Anubhavji's mom.  You will pass and I hope there is not a single year like you in my life. Go corona GO

Kitna bheed jaisa.. fir bhi kitna haseen... Kitne hi chehre dekhe hain.. par tujhsa koi nahin... Log kehte hain kuch khaas nahi tujhme..  Par kuch bhi to aam sa nahi h tujhme.. Woh jo meri si Nazar nahi rakhte.. Woh hi log Teri kadar nahi karte.. Tera chehra aankon ke saamne rehta hai..  Teri muskurahat meri muskurahat mei mili rehti hai Ye jaankar bhi main  anjaan rehti hun.. Tere bina meri hasti mei Kami si rehti hai.. Adhoori si rehti hun main.. Ya kuch jyada hi bhari bhari si .. Tere bina adhoori . Lekin Tere khayalo se bhari hui.. Chaha to bahut na chahe tujhe ..  Lekin chahat par agar zor hota.. Ye silsila shuru na hota..  Tujhse milne ki khwahish mei mar na jaun kahin.. Mil le aakar.. thodi si aur zindagi de de....  Kuch apni kadwi si baatein keh de... Kuch apni Kami si de de.. Mere baare mei socha nahi hoga tune.. Nahi to fir tu tanha kyun hai . Agar safar mei akela nahi hai..  To kyun mere khayalon mei aata jaata rehta hai Ek baar to jhoot kah...

It's a day.. it's one of those days . When I am bipolar . Happy and sad.. busy and free.. crying and smiling.. thoughtful and thoughtless.. mechanical and creative.. hungry and full .. angry and repenting... All in a same day.. women's days probably has all emotions in a single day .... But there is one overwhelming feeling that prevails... Today.. there is none . All feelings are equal and opposite in nature.   Though I am happy having a long weekend and I have started missing office as well ... I guess I have a bipolar disorder.. Tanu weds Manu returns ki kangana jaisa feel ho Raha hai...  All songs running in my head . Piya move on ...  Ghani bawri.. pata nahi kya kya ...  And with that.. let's sign off...  Good night 🌉🌉