straight from the heart

Where is everybody going... Leaving me alone..  jisse pyaar karo, jisse dil lagao.. woh chala jaye chodkar... Jeevan kya ek dhoka hai..  Jab khush ho jao... Fir koi duniya chodkar chale jaata hai..  Aur young age deaths are worse... Itnaaaa... Yaad aate hain.. papa, Rahul bhaiya, papa, Ravi bhaiya.. sab kyun chale gaye.. itni jaldi...  Bhagwaan aap aisa kyun karte ho? Ravi Bhaiya, kaise mujhe itna sir aankhon pe rakha.. itna bigaada, itna laad kiya.. we were like friends... Mujhe apni diary padhai, mujhse saare secrets share kiye, mujhe ghumaya firaya, jahan maine kaha mujhe lekar gaye, mujhe baar baar apne ghar bulaya..  Abb aao mere phone pe, uthao na Mera phone, baatein karo.. kahan ho??  Door se mujhe dekhkar hanso.. Bolo kuch.. kahan ho? Karo kuch, yahan sudharo, apne maa baap ko dekho, family ko dekho.. Kahan chale gaye.. ? Kabhi nahi miloge, apne ghar nahi bulaoge, kabhi baat nahi karoge? Happy birthday ka jawab nahi Diya😥 Jahan ho sukoon se rehna.....

Sahir kehte hain:- "वो अफ़साना जिसे अंजाम तक लाना न हो मुमकिन, उसे एक ख़ूबसूरत मोड़ देकर छोड़ना अच्छा"  Ek afsana bann gayi zindagi... That last hug of yours and we cried together... We felt our good times.. and you left me..us, everyone.. you were my first girlfriend in family.. you never judged me.. you always gave a sincere advice.. you shared your thoughts, things and much more.. we could talk for hours, days, nights... But we never ran out of words .. I am feeling like my safe place is gone... 17 years.. you were with me in my 20s and 30s... My adulthood ... I wanted to spend my olden days with you around.. when we could grow old together . Talked about our back pains ..  our girls first periods and dates..our families, dreams and what not.. I love you I am not able to say good bye.. I am not able to get over you..  though it ended.. but I wish I could be there with you in these times... I could help you heal rise and bloom.. just to support you .. being the air behi...