That last hug

Sahir kehte hain:- "वो अफ़साना जिसे अंजाम तक लाना न हो मुमकिन, उसे एक ख़ूबसूरत मोड़ देकर छोड़ना अच्छा" 

Ek afsana bann gayi zindagi...

That last hug of yours and we cried together... We felt our good times.. and you left me..us, everyone.. you were my first girlfriend in family.. you never judged me.. you always gave a sincere advice.. you shared your thoughts, things and much more.. we could talk for hours, days, nights... But we never ran out of words .. I am feeling like my safe place is gone... 17 years.. you were with me in my 20s and 30s... My adulthood ... I wanted to spend my olden days with you around.. when we could grow old together . Talked about our back pains ..  our girls first periods and dates..our families, dreams and what not.. I love you

I am not able to say good bye.. I am not able to get over you..  though it ended.. but I wish I could be there with you in these times... I could help you heal rise and bloom.. just to support you .. being the air behind your wings...just to see you get over the pain in life..  i wish I could help you deal the grief, emptiness and sorrow.. 

But you are so far away.. you have chosen your path away from me, us.. you have said goodbye ... 

I will cherish our good memories.. there has never been a bad one . I will cherish all time spent with you.. keep you safe in my memories.. love you more... And world is round.. I will see you someday.. when you are in right state of mind.. God bless you and kids.. with sadbuddhi, sehat aur khushi... Miss you... I will keep you close to my heart.. Till death do us apart..