straight from the heart

Memories... Kabhi jyada kabhi kamm aapki yaad aati zaroor hai, har occasion pe.. har mood mei...har haal mei..  Today I remembered you were the reason of my many firsts .. you were there with me, there for me when I needed my bhaiya and bhabhi..  When I used to study in Jia Sarai, you used to come and pick me up for that gedi Nd a movie in Saket.. you insisted me to spend time with you both.. and I had spent my life with you two..  aapka mere collge, mere hostel har jagah se mujhe pick karna . Itni care karna.. sab kuch.. bahut yaad aa raha hai...  Spending sleepless nights.. those endless talks... I really want to hug you right now.. I miss you a lot. Please talk to me. Koi na aithe dil diyan dasda...

Never thought this day will come into my life..  While scrolling my inbox for your email.. I got to see our first interaction on email.. I shared your roka pics with you.. and what not.. our email exchanges.. our feelings... Our friendship, our love and what not..  Being a people's counsellor, I always advise people to not to be too close in in-laws relationships.. but when did I became too close to you.. 17 years back .. my first email to you... 26.02.2009... Zindagi bahut lambi hai.. bahut zalim hai ..  After my marriage.. We had decided to hug each other when we meet... But never realised our last hug was already over... We had spent so much time together... We have shared pata nahi kya kya...  Bhagwaan jaldi utha lena, pata nahi kya kya aur dekhna padega..  Dil par patthar rakhkar muh pe makeup kar liya..  We are all living a fake life.. miss you and bhagwaan aapko sadbuddhi de..  mujhe bhi..